My mind in the railway carriage

I like standing at the far back of the last railway carriage

looking into the small window

with my hands blocking the light from both sides



focus



I go through the darkness of the tunnel

i go along the journey as the train gallops

I feel the dense of the emptiness

in the dark we see only the far end point, and it is further away gradually,

like some memories, going blur, out of focus at some point.


then


I see the reflection of light, the velocity of light

The train enters a new page of liveliness,

away from the darkness

away from the only point at the far end



I found that when we have light,

it is no longer the same,

we can see what is going pass us, backwards and forward

we see the whole picture





As the crowd surges forward

and I am still there,



standing.













Alien and him [Alien et lui]



Alien is in Paris.

Her heart and everything is in Paris.



but why, when he leaves HK,

Alien still feel it is something that she cares about?



when he leaves, as he goes away,

Alien does not know his address.

He no longer live in the little apartment in CWB. Heaven street.

His HK no. is abolished.

if he then doesnt use facebook,

Alien will never know where on Earth he is.



And she will not be able to find him with her UFO.

nor detect him.



disconnected.



Alien said to him: 'wish to see you again in somewhere...'

he replied to her: 'take care we will meet someday...'

Alien assumed.



She wanted to tell him that

He was one of her greatest inspiration her soil enriched her,
her water irrigated her,
her sun shone upon her
her angel guided her.



overcome the world she doesnt belong to.

Say goodbye to her complication as he goes




Silly me



I was kind of silly,
wrote a letter to my future self
to remind myself of you
'never forget him' I told myself

I was worried that I will forget you someday
but i guess I will not.
although the images were fading in my head
they are not as solid as you first left me

your smell was fading, and now nearly gone
and your face, slowly
the feeling
the importance
and your touch your warmth

slowly
fading away

but i guess you will never go off my mind
I will only laugh when i see the letter,
and I will be reminded your prayers in me

your words





Let X be...




Let X be the capacity of my heart,
How much have you been occupied and taken away?

diminishing

by doing nothing.
but rewinding in my memory, the words you said, dangerous and sweet.

Do you ever exist?
Have you been only an invisible imagination of mine?
A beautiful story made up by myself unconciously?

I have been thinking you were a good guy which probably you are.
But I figured out I should never have hope and expectations on anyone
so that I won't fall and be disappointed.
If I think you are bad, you were a lier,
all I will get, if I could be proved that I was wrong, are regrets

and I would rather choose the latter.


Sorry for being cynical
but I really wanted to know why is your ignorance
yet it seems to me that it is no longer important

Erase
my love

with some portions of my heart taken away
with the capacity of my heart diminishing


海 和 貝



海
一個讓我興奮莫名的地方

他是
全部


我幻想半顆貝殼
也許留戀著岸邊的冰涼撫摸著皮膚
滲入交替著血液的和暖
不願離開

但放手
隨著碧波蕩漾
潮水激烈擁吻
然後
回到原來的地方
沈下
緩緩的流水
在毫不起眼的深處蠢蠢欲動

又或者
拼死抓緊泥濘的根
磨著砂
奮勇地
試圖擺脫浪花的吸吮
無助的
直到水退下去
乾枯

最後被我拾掉
找到一個跟我同病相憐的
另一半
延續美麗的樂章