This is pretty insane.Now I haven't got a clock here. I mean I don't know the time since there is nearly no light in my room. Only the reflection of the moonlight and the street light. And the sound of heavy rain. I was waken up in the middle of night. I felt that I have to write something to you. The first time I write to anyone before.
I am very grateful that we were able to talk and share things, emotions, experience in us so deeply. to me it was unbelievable. Yesterday was so unbelievable to hear those things from you. I saw another you. I saw the mature Albert. I saw all the good and beautiful personalities in you that I feel attracted to.You made me too confortable to be in reality. It was like a dream talking to you in the middle of the river Seine in Paris, dreamy light, incredible views, those grand boats...you know..I didn't want to end it.
The reason of the attempt to tell you the similar points I found in you and my ex. bf was not really because I am scared. I used the word'scared' because I didm't know how to describe. After that I figured out, actually it was the feelings. the feelings was that I respected and loved him that once he meant a lot to me. He was the only guy in the world I fell for. But yesterday, not until yesterday...I saw it on you. I was overwhelmed. Just overwhelmed because you are not only physically attracted to me but spiritually.
I don't want to miss this chance. I don't wish that I wake up some other days and onths and years regreting that I 'missed' you becuase I wasn't brave enough to tell you that you are the second guy in the would, in my life and it is so rare and precious that we can share our thoughts, emotions, dreams, desires...anything that fascinates me when I talk to you. I really cannot afford to miss or lose this chance.
Love,
Carmen
